She.. is me, yet not me for we
are different.. the black in the brown and the brown in the
black blood bleeding the same but we are apart in our
togethernes, pulling taunt but sliding easily to opposite
sides...
She is.... building me up to tear me down and making
me laugh to make me cry and making me wipe tears thought long
dried and she is healing my wounds to crack that whip to draw fresh
blood and, and.. as I stand up after falling down again from her
blow..(gentle blow..?), I am dumbfounded but in awe, of her.. her
me, and me her..the same?
For she is..me, but not
really... and I ached and ached for pain to be reborn to joy
in me for her but... (sighing now to catch failing breath)
it is
long gone and not coming back to me... for she is...me but not
really and this togetherness is best done apart, this black in my
brown and my brown in her black but She I must depart from-, my
sister, my blood-, diluted.
VACUUM EFFECT
by Princess Namaste
copyright@12-21-05
Unbearable, the thought of you not paying attention to me and
giving all my time to someone else.. many someone else and it
makes me... think of the hours I lived just waiting for you to
pay homage to my existance but you
turn away without so
much as a look my way.. and you say that is what I always
want, but I can ask of nothing else right now but that
because... I depend on you for life-, my life for you
are my mother and I the unborn child in your womb, waiting on
you to recognize me before climbing on that table, yet
again.
THE NEED
by Princess Namaste
copyright@April292005
The need
The prick,
I bleed red
the cherry color it pours
out of me and I try not to feel
the pain
overwhelmimg me..
The prick
of innocent words
wounding my heart and I remember you
saying
grow thick skin and don't take it so personally..
But I feel nonetheless
The prick
too sharp to hold in
the tear drops down on
cheeks already washed clean
by torrents of tears
all my own...
The prick,
necessary to regain self
raw and open to them,
men,
lovers to be,
my other half..
Thicker skin whilst being
as soft as a flower
is what you say..
This balance is what i
need,
but have
not.
MENTAL ORGASM
by Princess Namaste
copyright May1-2005
You came over and opened me up and slowly inserted you into me, riding
slowly there before turning me over and riding me here, too...
And I
moan at the dexterity of your tongue and the verbal assault of your
mouth and you fingering my mental cells, I am excited there, turned
on there, wetted there, going there, with you..
Me matching your
poetic rhythm rising up to meet you as you move upward and upward
making me close my eyes and say "yes! yes! yes! Right there!"
For you bring me there, dexterity of tongue verbal assault of
the mouth, you finger my mental cells and I cry for more and more
till I can hold on no longer and must and must and....must
release on you, Climaxing on your mental tip, you making me climax
on the mental tip, again.
THE DOOR MAN
by Princess Namaste
copyright@12/01/05
He holds the
door, and stands unassuming while the other walks in the other walks
in.. His eyes wonder to her, and his desires his desires are strong
but he holds the door while the other walks in.. wishing to be the one
she turns to for love and for holding in the late dark night when fear
grips her and she wants to be hush, hushed.. shhhhh..
With so much
love inside he wonders will she one day see him this woman that is his
friend but that he wants more from but would never speak these words
to.. these words to.. But he decides one day as he holds the door
for both ofthem before stepping in so it closes bang, bang.. that he
will not hold the door anymore because it grows heavy to hold, to hold..
Hold in these feelings no more he can and so on this day he steps in
first and ushers her in after him and stands, stands firmly his
ground before asking.. Can I be yours..yours? A smile creeps upon dark
lips and she turns with key in hand and inserts it in the hole and
closes, locks the door shut, tight shut so no one else will enter, there
"what took you so long?" is the question she asks before surrending
her love to the man who held the door to her heart open, all this time..
Now within she hands him the key for he has earned the rights to her
heart, this heart, finally.
FALLING BACK
by Princess Namaste;
copyright@may29-05
Sometimes I wonder about us
people, human beings, this
we are different yet we
produce
like emotions
that are expected to lead to the
same
God.
We struggle with our differences
and wish for sameness
so that we can feel unique in
expressing emotions that are sent up and
expected to lead to the same
God.
We go through our motions
and climb our individual mountains
and we send up wishes
fervent thoughts and words
that only you can
understand but you send them up
and expect that they will lead to that
same
God.
The struggle,
the need to be..
under some higher level
is so intense that I wonder...
I wonder...
what is right and
who is on point
and
how can I
expect that
they,
my words will lead
to that same
God.
But the words turn in
my head and as they
are tossed around and
hit into place by
contradictions I
see..
I see...
that none of it,
the puzzles
and mazes
matter because
it is this need to succumb
that leads my words to that same
God, everytime.
Princess Namaste's Bio:
Princess Namaste was
born in Jamaica, but presently resides in Orange, New Jersey. Her love for
poetry has traveled with her from
her homeland to her adopted home of the United States, and is as
natural to her as the air that she breathes.
Professionally, Princess
Namaste is a Teacher, but her ultimate passion lies in writing and its various
forms of expression. Not only is she a
Poet, but a published author who earlier on in her writing career has
written for her native paper, The Jamaican
Star, and her school paper, The
Rutgers' University Observer
Princes Namaste
presently freelances for several noteworthy magazines, and
websites. She is slated to have four self help articles published in
the next few months and is presently working on a story, in the form of a
scholastic book that she hopes will bring
to light the effects of
illiteracy within the public school system.
Additionally, in the
near future Princess Namaste plans to publish what she calls "a unique book of
poetry that will not only seek to touch
the heart, but heal the soul as well." She hopes that her artform
will continue to motivate and touch the lives of those
who part take in it and will enlighten each person-, as her name,
Namaste, infers-, 'to see the unique
light in him/her, and therefore in other human beings.'